9 weeks

Today marks nine weeks since Eli has gone to Heaven. I have no idea where all that time has gone. It seems like when I was pregnant the weeks just drug on and on, there was no end in sight and now, time just drifts by while I stand still. I still keep wishing that someone is going to actually invent a time machine and I can go back and change how things turned out. I love and miss Eli each and every day, I'd give anything just to be able to see him again.